This words were my heart & soul

I swore an oath to never look back
Every time i walk away, the feeling
of hysteria takes control of me.
An obscured fault thats made to swallow,
with the force of aggression & sharp pain

Conflicts & vendetta were vague,
but let the screaming be heard.
Waking up each morning with a worn-out face,
last night seemed a nightmare &
Everyone was so far away

Made to stand alone & kept on waiting,
I couldn't endure for too long.
Oh mother nutured & stood by my side,
but still i couldn't accept the fact.
Mood swings started to kill me gradually

Eventually, i realised all my hope were
well & truly gone. It never ended in a
triumph for me. A nostalgia feeling
where changes had no tangible effects.
For in my own absence, i was lost.

PS: Tears slowed & creased to fall together, the harder it gets.
[SUGIE]