This is probably the best days of my life. I have no idea how i got infected with chicken pox! Fuck lah, i can't go jani's sweet 16. & i really want to slit my throat with a knife. It's darn painful that i can't even swallow my saliva. I suspect it's pneumonia, i'm like still lazy to go to the doctor. Last night, i came down with even heavier temperature that i couldn't sleep well. I woke up around 4 plus & saw 4 sms. Anita & i just chat for a while. What the hell, that girl was playing com early morning. So i just walk to the kitchen & wet a towel for my burning head. Mum had called me around 6.30 plus, 20 dec. I scolded the minute she phoned me, i was angry the whole afternoon waiting for her call. I complained everything to her lah. I'm so sick of staying at home just watching tv & there's hardly any nice shows that's screening. Then again, why of all the people i have to get this stupid chicken pox? I feel angry not being able to go out & have fun. Why do i always have to get get sick during every holidays. I feel it's so unfair. Ystd mummy called, i was so eager to tell her i got chicken pox. Instead she scolded me of my sore throat, she forbides me to eat anything sweet. Then i complained to her how horrible i looked, like a monster. Dad, sis & bro went to Dharan(think so) so mum is all alone. Priya & i chit-chat for a while, she came outside my house. At first she didn't want to get near me but still sat quite near. Omfg, she told me her stories which made me laugh! Darn, she was so funny lah. I'm still very bored here.

Chao

Anita & my ice-cream

ouhh ?

Like couples on first date ?

Nadu& nana

Ystd we went to swensens with Mr oei, obviously he paid for the whole thing. He was waiting outside the bartley gate & we were late. Getting into the car was a difficult one & poor anita ended up sitting up on alena's lap. I was laughing through out lah, it was so funny. I couldn't sit on each others lap cause i was wearing a skirt. I was feeling a little giddy, a sick person still could come out of the house. I was seeing two visions, my eyes felt so heavy but i still wanted to get out of the house. Soon we arrived at Thomson plazza & went in. We obviously grabbed a little attention with nancy around. Well i couldn't really ate that much & i couldn't finish my foods. I didn't mean to waste the food but my taste was bitter. But how did anita & i ate the ice-cream. It was cold & cute from outside cause can like bbq the marshmallow. Nancy burnt it & the smell was strong, haha. At one time, my fingers were really cold that it went numb. I was scared as i felt pain too. Anita rubbed my hands for me, thanks. We look for our dresses around & it cost bombs for such see-through dress. We tour around upp pierce & saw monkeys along our car & some were taking pictures, i couldn't be bothered. We had fun in the car laughing & ridding along the humps. We then proceeded to AMK Hub for fun. I don't know for how long we kept going to the same shops. Then we bought some cards for our loved ones. I still don't know what to give him? It's super late but i hope he will understand. I was feeling weak by then & i wanted to go home. I don't know what happened when i came home. My coin purse was missing with my black 8G iPod nano, some coins & the key for my locker. My heart even hurts alot more now. It jammed for twice & for it's thrice it was meant to be lost. I don't know where the hell i lost it, maybe in the bus when i doze off with my bag wide open but i didn't heard any sound when it dropped. I couldn't possibly lose it in the mall. I met my bro on msn & he scolded me too. I bet he's going to tell mum. & i asked him to pass so many msg to mum. I hope he did just what i told him. So before going to bed, i took my tep; it was 38.6 deg again. I was shivering the whole night & it came down this morning but it seems it acted up again. My throat hurts alot, i can't swallow & my taste buds turned bitter. I think mum called me in the noon but i was busily watching ''Once upon a time in high school''. I didn't heard my fone ring, arrgh! Mum, i'm so dying to talk either of you. Pls call back soon, till now i'm still waiting for your call. I learnt a lesson, never carry anything valuable & keep my Hp by my side.

Chao

High school gangsters, lol.

Nita, taking pictures of nature.

She took this, beautiful. Jeni, the photographer.

Nikon D40x

10 dec, Nadu Padu; Jana

Sabrina & priya

Priya fell down after this photo was taken, haha

Dipa, way to go mama.

Jeni wawa

Syazwi

Alena

Renu the swinging arms!

i forget how to spell his name, sorry Stessen

Tamil Nadu, nancy

SUGIE doing yoga using the bowl.

& a way to go

Nadu & co.

Both are indians

erms, she's also an indian

again the co.

Swinging arms & i at christmas

She wanted to play with me so i wanted to kiss her !

Ystd we went to Orchid Country club to play bowling. Everyone came late & poor zul had to wait for more than an hour. It was based on the Sing-Malaysian sgs campers only & we invited priya all along as they taught the dance; Tenu Leke. We reached the place & it seemed fully booked, so we just waited for a while. We bought our shoes first & got 2 lanes. Everyone gave us a stare as we were making so much noise & it was the first time for some of us. Everyone had shot already & it was priya's turn. We didn't expected anything & i was there taking pictures when she suddenly bowl so hard that she fell down. Everyone laughed aloud & some of the people also saw the incident. Poor thing, it was her first ever time. We had a good laugh lah. & jeni could shot the pins down, 0 all the way until she started improving for Alif's sake. Alena striked twice no doubt about stessen. He was the best among us. Renu was so funny, whenever she bowl, she must swing her left hand. Maybe the ball was too heavy for her & she got the lowest points, even jeni beat her. Zul & i also competed but he was much better than me. My first shot, the ball got stucked at my thumb & it bounced, it was quite embarrasing lah. We just had 2 games & went to eat. We were supposed to go Vivo but lack of time. Alena & i ate buddy meal, it was wonderful. On the way back, we took some pictures. & i really had a good laugh. & ouh ya, i pierced my nose too. I got a good scolding from my aunt as i pierced at the wrong place.

chao

MOE Changi, where we slept; took it past midnight. First night, dogs were barking.

With the so called 'jackie chan's bro, haha. Looks exactly if you up close. PINKY on far right!

My group picture, FAITHFUL; Instructor Idris.

Afiquah, my buddy with Adibah from Tampiness sec & WEi Li Honey from Yishun Town sec.

After 5 days 4 nights, finally at SGS back again.

Before heading back home with Instructors Idris & Adi.

The fourth night where we spent taking pictures with one another.

My SEXY back buddy, Clarence from Yishun Town sec.

Loved, Missed.

ADIBAH baby <3

Marvin & erms, i forget

Faiz, the one immature. Hah, from Yishun Town sec.

I'm back from HK & my longest camp. I didn't really elaborate on that. Well it was really fun but i was tired by the end of my trip. My uncle, step cousin & auntys really doted on me esp uncle. He is a very tall man who walks super fast, it's very difficult to catch up with him. I was quite lonely lah, with my parents. The places we went to were beautiful & i liked the weather cause it was chilly not warm. I had to sleep with my cousin for lack of rooms, haha. Disneyland was was even more chilly up on the hills, Cindrella so georgeous! At the 7th day, we were rushing to pack our luggages. & dad pissed me off as he drank too much till his leg was in pain. I was angry at him for drinking too much. But it went well. I hate to step in the plane ever again. I'm scared lah, but to reach my parents i will. 13 nov-21 nov

We didn't sleep all night as we were excited. Anita, alena, anayas, renu & priya overnight at my place. We watched korean movies & cried at the same time as it was very romantice & touching. It was funny watching anita & priya crying. My brother & friends felt hungry & we ordered Macdonal late at 3am. My eyes were swollen & i was hyper, i didn't sleep a wink that night. 4am i took a shower & put on my clothes & headed to alena's house with her. We were going to the airport to send my family off. Around 6am we waited for the people going nepal & boarded the bus. Many families were there to send us off. We reached the airport & bro disgrace me, he shouted like mad. I only could walk off with my head lowered, lol. Dad was very anxious & panicky, he is always like this. Bro friends were there too but i knew no one. 8am they had to board in, i followed mum till the gate. Finally she cried, i couldn't do anything. Dad didn't cried neither did bro & sis. We were behind the glasses & watched till they went off. & i shed for the first time infront of the crowd. I was choking on my emotion, i wanted to stay strong. Bro friends were beside us & when i saw them cry, i felt pitiful. They were crying but i was holding back. When sis & mum waved back at me, i swear i wanted to leave with them. & they were gone. We ate breakfast at Mac & dad called to say they were taking off. I had no words & he asked me to assure bro's friends not to cry. Alena & i headed back to school for A.math. I was very tired by then & i fell asleep i class. Sorry i couldn't help it. I was in my sleep when i was scribbling when Mr.oei was saying in class. I woke up at around 12.40 & looked at my paper, it was hilarious. I don't know what i scribbled in the paper, lol. 29 nov

The 5 day camp was super fun! It was the first time where i interacted with other people, i swear. At first it was hard knowing them, was a bit shy to open up but gradually we opened up. The first day we went to kampong glam, it was tiring & boring. Later part then we went to Orchard Rd & ate our dinner at Lucky Plazza. We always stick to our buddy. The 2nd day we did our Kayak orientation, bath after that & headed to chinatown then to Night safari. I partner with azfar & he sat infront as he was smaller than me. We nearly capsized at first & was difficult to kayak as we couldn't control but Instructor Marvin was there to guide. When we came ashore, i was yelling 'help' for fun & idris came to the rescue. Haha, nolah i was being dramatic but he & azfar carried the kayak & i was free. The Tribal dance was so energetic & i was so attracted. There were a few school from japan & the guys were kawaii. The 3rd day we were supposed to do our kayak expedition but it poured heavily so we couldn't do! I was heartbroken, hah. But we got a afternoon nap, i quickly ran to my dorm & fell asleep. The fourth day we did our rockclimbing only due to weather change again! I was so angry that we didn't get to do Zip-line & abseiling but we got to do improvised rafting. We were given 45mins to create our raft that could float on the sea. We were a bit slower than other group & couldn't really finished on time. We carried our raft to the sea & i got to go twice. When we came back with our raft the second time, the right barrel came off; we laughed our ass off. It was so funny lah. We prepared for the campfire, by the time the show started i was feeling unwell. I didn't ate my dinner which jana ate for me. But my group stood by me & assured me not to give up. We performed a skit & advertistments where i had to do the M1 mumbai ad. The campfire was so fun but i was sick. We took pictures with our Malaysian friends as well as the local friends. We had time till 2am but we overshot. You could say everyone were sleepwalking. The next day i was well again, maybe it my sick had to do with cold. We had a mass singing where everyone made a big circle & hold hands & sang. It was so touching & sad lah, i couldn't shed. Then we had to go round & shake hands. Everyone was like crying & i didn't want to see their faces. When it came to my instructor, he was crying & i hugged him. It was so sad lah & i hugged everyone. I miss Pinky, he made me cry as well as my instructor Idris. We ran behind their buses, crying. Soon we too had to go off, we bid the instructors goodbye. 3 dec - 7 dec

I've been feeling lonely after parents were gone. They never called me till the third day where i made the move. I was mad at them but when i heard mum's voice, i nearly breakdown. It was tough living by myself in a new place. I felt like i was all alone, by myself. I had to hand wash all my clothes, my finger nails are long & i don't want to cut. It's uncomfortable living under someone. How i wished now that i never got used to my parents pamper. I do notthing all day, just sit in my room & fall asleep. It's difficult, one word.

PS: I feel like crying as i feel like i've lost something, i miss my malaysian friends!

Chao

CHEERS everyone!

Coach Em, We love you <33

Still loving coach, hah.

The shy babe, Emily (:

She's not angry though she looks like it.

Coach Emily's cake. ''Coach emily, you rock our sticks. We'll miss you'', msg.

Today was such a tiring day, I didn't even knew i was alive after i woke up cause of the deep sleep.

The rashes are so itchy that i can't resist the temptation.

I was so sleepy in the bus & it started raining heavily with strong winds.

The day was going to be cool. We had P.E. & took our own time to walk into the hall when Mr Lee came.

We played dogeball against the boys, it's physically the boys stronger than the girls.

The balls they threw were very hard & we screamed alot.

Had math & went into a new chpt which i'm trying to understand better.

Slowly i will get it with the help of others.

Chemistry test was tmr & we didn't knew it cause everyone was saying it was today.

I studied real hard for it & memorise by heart but i think i forget it now.

I have difficulties with the solubility table & state symbol but somehow i managed to understand a little.

Talked alot during mother tongue about girls stuffs & people.

Lucky we didn't had accounts today & i dread it not because i hate the subject.

I was looking forward for floorball training cause i missed coach.

These few days, i had been thinking about her & who'll be the new coach.

Cause i really can't bear to let her go & she going to Finland for like half a year.

She's the best coach & she will always be & i still want her to coach after she come.

We gave her a farewell card & a cake. We had to go across the street to get it & have it ordered.

The bakery people were very kind, they offered to bake it for us cause there were still 4 more hours to go & we begged the aunty.

Ms chng went to claim it while we were running around in the hall.

Everything was planned last minute but it turned out well.

Anyway everyone was loving it & so many 'bluetoothing' were turned on.

I miss coach!

& i'm so hating for the campfire, regrets only.

I have yet to come up with the script & costume & i have no time left, i'm so dead.

Hah, i wish i can get to sleep & there's no time for sleeping too.

Still i screwed my A.Math test for Linear law + Circles, made that bloody mistake even though i knew what to do. ARRGH!

There's no more chance & i'm the only one left behind in the shelf.

Maybe that's only the worries i have to be left out or alone.

I have no mood to study & what's the use of studying when i can't pick up what's being teached.

I have so many things to say but when you don't look me in my eyes makes me forget about my words.

A small trigger can cause unhappiness, like last time or maybe he have forgetton about it already.

Forget last time, Cherish the future.

Fuck

Chao (:

wees, group picture. Sorry alena, anita & laxmi you guys are being cut.

SUGIE is an old ah granny!

Jeni in her pri sch spec, while alena & i are big time nerds.

& here too, geeks get the boys. I love this glass (:

Hees, you can see my new phone here.

WTF, today was extremly tiring & a busy day.

Laxmi woke me up in the morning 0535hrs, i was kinda pissed cause i was wanting to wake at 6.

I got ready & settled down at 6.30 which i didn't know i was the last to arrive. Jana couldn't make it & the rest were on time.

It started to rain & i bought an umbrella from ystd incident.

I was so angry at mum & i yelled at her in front of so many people for making me walk in the rain.

I was really so hot-headed that i ignored her several times only after i cooled.

Back to the top, anita,laxmi,alena & i took a taxi to AMK sec cause we were already late & not in our red-cross uniform.

What a stupid taxi driver we met but he wasn't exactly that bad, he said nepalease girls were ugly.

Ya, the word ''UGLY'', but he was cracking jokes on the way too.

How stupid, he bought us to Pierce sec instead of AMK sec but we made in time & hurried to change.

I say the sec toilet is not clean & very few cubicles.

Laxmi saw an cockroach crawling up in the ceiling & it dropped onto the floor.

My heart drop to the floor, screamed like hell & was the first to ran off to the door. From that, i was even scared to go to the toilet.

We did public speaking & it was so tiring, going door to door explaining to people about first-aid at home.

I was very tired after completing half the blk & had another blk to finish.

We slack a bit & didn't completed the task on time & we went off.

We went to AMK hub waited for the rest of the crew to pop up, jeni was on time.

Anita took time buying her contact, she looked like an ang moh-chinese.

To kill the time in Spectacle Hut, we tried on many glasses taking pictures & the people were looking at us & felt paiseh.

It was 4pm & we headed for Youth park, *scape.

We kinda got lost in the place of our work & made one big round around the YMCA building.

It was even hilarious when alena mistook an ex-schoolmate of our pri sch.

The girl looked exectly like jeni's friend & alena went off like a mad woman ''HEY, hey shivani''.

The poor girl just turned her, took a notice of her & went off without saying anything.

Actually it was me who said it was jeni's exmate, lols & alena took my words.

Cause the situation was so damn gas-laughing, we laughed our asses off the roads.

That girl might think we were making fun of her but it was alena who lost her face.

Still couldn't find the place we took a bus ride to there.

Finally reached around 4.30 & we looked around for clothes, mostly printed tees.

Well alena & i were planning to buy couple tees but bought singles' tees, heh.

Most of us bought more than 2 & jeni regretted buying the red tee but i promised to buy if it does not fit her.

We went to Long John & some of us wanted KFC, go shaw house but quarreled in the road making 'traffic points'.

So went to the nearest LJS cause some of us were dying without any lunch & breakfast.

We then headed to Far East in search for my Supergirl costume but to fat hope lah.

We only saw Wonderwoman like a swimsuit, so revealing.

Few complain of tired & headache meant time for home, ya was a long way back.

Passed by Lucky Plazza & saw Hafiz! Long lost workmate, he's back in PH after mariah's shift to Bishan.

Met him & told him, i'm taking a break in the mean time. Azmie is still in, besties.

At the taxi stand, saw Mac & Faizal too.

I was GAG, i wanted to avoid but took the chance lah.

Went to talk to him & blahblah etc & send me off to the bus-stop which he'd always do after work too.

Faizal uncle was still the same & there was notthing to talk about.

The fact mac was standing so close to me made my darlings so scared that they like screamed & asked me to go bit far from him.

& i asked for jana's floorball stick too, same cca.

Then they went off to centerpoint for help workers & were slacking only.

Went home & were seperated cause mums were yagging at each one of our phones except mine.

I bought stickers, hee cause i love them.

Shit, tmr still got tutor & i'm so dead scared cause i haven't completed my homework.

I still have a long script to come up with & a costume, so pressed for time.

FYE is only like 2weeks away & i don't know what i will write in the exam papers.

I'm so secrewed!

I just hope ryan won't lose his patient tmr while teaching cause i have a tendeancy to forget things very quickly.

I got a new phone too & dad still haven't bought me the sim card, hurry!

currently using bro's.

I have allergys on upper lip cause it's very dry after the air-conned room, legs & fingers.

It's like so itchy & i couldn't find time to run off to a nearby clinic.

I guess i have to resist the itchy tempetation, but not that serious.

Chao (: