This words were my heart & soul

This is my sister, tana laxmi.

Happy new year 2065, nepali calendar.

Slept quite late last night, been searching for an answer throughly.

Kept messaging people, so i could preoccupy myself with something so as well not to bore myself.

I didn't feel like sleeping yesterday, knew i was going to have another nightmare.

True indeed, saw myself crying in my dream; at that point my heart felt crushed.

I don't know why but i always see strange dreams, is this the point where my life's going to end?

Friday, award presentation day seemed great; maybe it's the last year ending for us.

I enjoyed myself very much & we got to watch the performance!

I was looking forward for that, but found that it was quite a bore.

When i reached home, i fall flat on my bed but eventually got up to bath.

Thought couldn't wake up in the morning for Red-cross enrolment ceremony but i did.

Waited for ras to come & went together, was pretty late aldy.

Only the sec 1 & us came, others were hardly seen on this occassion.

After the ceremony, went for lunch & give out goodie bags for the lower-income people at jalan besar.

Spent like 3/4 hr travelling on the bus to took us to the place & i urgently needed the toilet.

The houses look so scarey & dark, at first i was scared to even knock & my group people seldom talked.

After this even we went home, i had stuffs to buy. Spent 50 bucks on foods, aunt's sure to scold me.

Well, Grandma passed away 08/04. Yes, i know that mum's crying millions & millions of tears.

Who knew it would mark the end of her life, & i'm awaiting for mine's.

I tried to contact dad several times but failed. Maybe i'd better wait for a better time cus mum would be crying half the time talking to me.

The funeral was held ystd where i couldn't eat anything thats got to do with meat & salt.

Ofcus, i was craving for foods. I tried to be good & drank fluids only.

My stomach bloated like hell lah. Tana & i went to her house to watch golmaal, was very hilarious.

In the film, there even had our names; laughed like hell lot. Count ourselfs lucky, her aunt was out.

When the sun set, i got to eat my things!

Haa, aunt had cooked momo to celebrate NY with others.

I ate plenty, my stomach was grumbling. Then i did a reflection & went to bed.

PS: What would you do if you were the one falling down?

[SUGIE]