This words were my heart & soul

OK, we came in First for the inter-school badminton, Lichfield. It was quite great as i played Double with Fionia, we were not the best though. My captain told me to play single but i gave it up. I lost all my skills, and nearly forget how to play as it has been 2 years since i last played. Primary school it was fun playing with our teacher, Mdm Choo, she trained us as there were no coach. I onced remember we came Fourth in North zone, it was a great experience. Now, my whole body is aching as i'm missing my primary school teachers. Sometimes i find it to be weird, or am i the one weird. I do things my way and you can find me a nuisance, nagging early in the morning. I'm the one who's always at fault but i keep quiet, believe it? My body is not normal, i'm so sick physically and emotionally. Deep down, there are many things so wrong and i can't help it cause i can't stand it. There are many mysteries and yet to be solved. I can't concentrate in class, and its not about BGR, there are somethings to be understood. I didn't want to get hurt and make things worse. I'm getting more lazy, i do things at my pace not looking at the time. I really can't help it, my body is not normal and i'm not like anyone. I'm fighting a disease which my body can't cope with, not serious it has something to do with my heart. Floorball training was fun as we had physical training, it's been long since i ran that much. I didn't get to play the games as there were too many teams. Coach met me at the end of the training and asked me why i didn't get or didn't want to play, i was scared cus i thought she would scold me. It really was not scolding but somehow when i was talking to her, i felt scared and nearly breakdown. I emo in the training session and all the way to home. I guess i am really so TIRED, i really am and i can't stand it cause it is always ruining up my plans. It's been a week since i last met him and i miss him. I'm off.
Chao 9.37pm