This words were my heart & soul

Lately everyone is feeling down, i don't know why we have this feeling. Too bad we're humans and have to live with it through be it sad or happy. Trust me, i will make this go away. I will try my every means to make it go away even if to see you laugh. Cause the feeling is killing everyone, i have no one to laugh with. I strike because of her, she is the only one who can set me at ease. I won't have to worry or cry, i make my own happiness. But i'm afraid for one thing, i can't console anyone. I bad with my words, i may blurt the wrong things so don't expect sympathy from me. I'm really so bad. One moment, i'm thinking that my parents are dead another minute i'm making use of them. I'm so heartless, when they don't have a heart each. I got to be flexible. Lately, my mood just shoots up, i'm trying to control. I will be shouting like an old aunty, loud and fierce. Sometimes, i think i'm going to die. I think have cancer, i don't know. What if it's really going to end, and i may not be able to cherish my moments. It's been 5 days without each other, finally caught up with him but he had to rush off with his friend. Msg him late at night, and we're talking about 'stuffs'. It's fun to tease him, when both of us blush. Even if it hurts, i won't bring myself down.
Chao 11.23pm