This words were my heart & soul

AOut of nowhere, im back again. It feels odd & weird cus its been months since i updated my blog. Yeah, i missed writing so much. I actually came to do some research for my geeral paper which is held on the 18th oct. I jus did my pure math, it sucked! Seriously, i could have done better but i got carried away by my nervous. I had prepared myself but things jus got wrong, which is a pity. I gotta do well for my statistics paper. Im pretty nervous for my GP as well, have been preparing abt 4essays. Hope it would be good enough. Now is dashain but the cambridge students are slogging hard for their board xams:( The streets are so quiet cus most of the people have gone to their village to celebrate the festival. Well, im not also in the mood for 'fun'. Im in a serious stake of my lyf,been thinking alot. Haven't met up with bf for so long,miss him. I'm still having pblms at home,as usual. I don't know if its really abt my attitude or jus the temper. hais! Lyf in nepal has really & greatly changed who i am. I have become someone different but some of my habits still remain. I don't mind for the change in me but to live it. Days are passing by fast & who knows what outcome awaits us. Its time to learn & nuture, & live by ourself. I don't wanna be dependent on our parents cus she's always like nagging & saying bad stuffs. I don't know who i have become now, i can not say for myself either. There's jus a thing left for me to do now. & ras & ppl, i do miss you guys so much i can not xpress how i feel but sometimes i jus feel so empty & lonely. Wish we all were tgt but life is not always abt having fun. PS:my new mail is sugar-babyy@hotmail.com, im no longer using my old. OKAY,gtg nw. BYEE..