This words were my heart & soul

Just when i let go, you start to walk all over me again.

ARRGH, school is like so boring these few days & i get tired easily. I don't want to fall asleep in class lah, now that i'm left with notthing. How am i going to tell things that i lost tons of my stuffs, seriously it sucks. I'm most angry with mum, partly it's my fault too cause i was kept post-ponding to pack my tuffs too. Dammit, what am i supposed to do & i don't really have the urge to study. I'm like losing my mind any moment, don't have the energy to get high in class only when school ends. Today, i'm so confirmed i screwed my math & chem paper. Stupid, i slept & never studied even a page. I'm so worried that i'm going to disappoint my parents. Speaking of them, i honestly missed them little. Cause they never call & i also forget that i used to have parents. Sister's wedding is on the 20th & my one year anniversary with dodo is on the 21st. I'm so excited & sad cause i couldn't get to go & celebrate. Brother sweet 18 just passed by, 14th jan. I have this fucking cough & flu for like a week now & seriously it sucks! I have to take this filthy salt water for my cough. I'm using like one whole tree of tissue paper for this idiot flu. & if you only thought i'd like playing the mute. Gosh, sec4 already, have like loads of upcoming tests. Sort of freaking me out now, don't know what's gonna happen in O's. Partly blame me for spreading my virus to renu, i know i have my fault there but did i know i had it? I love Chiodos songs. You wouldn't know what loneliness is about once you're alone. I want to make it up to you but just i don't get the chance. Sorry, i have all sorts of imagination & dreams. I just like playing but you prove me wrong, where do i stand? This is probably the best of my life right now, falling beneath of others & letting them walk all over. Don't make me shed for the last. I don't want to listen to anyone, it just seems that somethings wrong. You make it sound so obvious i'm in the wrong, i'm losing my faith. I'm like suffering a fate more worse than death forget all the good times but soon this is going to pass & everything will repeat again, it always been like this. Ouh ya, i bought a new floorball stick, Raw 26. I nearly cried when i wasn't allowed to buy, it meant passion & life. Gosh, i suck at this.

PS: Forget each other names & just walk away, like you never knew each other at all.

Chao