Although it's near to perfect, it's hard to hold on to. I'm trying very hard to show the smiley face and mean it. Time pass by just by thinking about you, day and night. Trying to handle everything at a go but it's very messy. My room is so damn messy with my foolscape of homeworks, lying under the beds or the drawers. It is so disgusting to live in something like that, cus i can't concentrate. Well the dance did not went that smoothly as on Tuesday as there was a change of song. After the costume parade was my dance and i did not have to change back, but Ms Chng said we would have a change to traditional dance which satkar didn't know. When laxmi and i cnaged to our traditional dance costumes, he said it was our dance. I panicked alot and couldn't dance properly. The feedback received was wonderful, but it was not that perfect as we hurried too much. My mum and other aunties are coming down to the school to cook momo, our traditional food. Mid-Year is catching real soon and i have to stop all my actitives and start revision on my own as i don't think i have the time for tution. I don't think i can make it on my own but i need help and will try hard, i guess i won't give up easily. From the start i got everything wrong, as i don't really pay attention in class. Classical music is good for the ears and heart. Ouh ya, a sharp bone is like going to pierce through my skin but a slight one. My mum was quite shocked and feel it. I just feel that i have to get in terms with everyone and it won't help me if i'm always so lonely.
Chao 10.37pm

It's too perfect until it's hard to recognise the mistakes. When i'm asleep, i'm saying my prayers and hoping that god is listening. I wake up in the middle of the night to find myself crying. My brother is super irrating! That's the reason why we sibling don't communicate, it's difficult and we treat each other like strangers. So i just treat it like i'm the only child. I don't know the reasons. Why is everyone acting so strangely? I guess the impact have hurt them too much. Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow and you will be alright. I find it hard to concentrate in class, i keep in daydreaming or talking. Speech day was ok, cus i was marching alone and i was laughing to myself as there were no other friends beside me. I was like laughing and smiling away. Sad to say, a girl from our squard fainted. I told her not to march and let alena take over, but i guess she was over-confident that she could withstand the heat. The food was also nice but i was quite full to take but still finished it. When you know you can't have it, why bother to even try when your effots are going to be vain. You can make miracles if you take the first step, and not just by praying but trying. My girls and i are going Cathy cinema, i'm dying to watch a horror one while that thanna is scared. I'm too tired, i'm going retire for the night.
Chap 8.57pm